May Showers

last night was the worst
i am home now...almost 8am and no desire to do it all over again tonight.

i feel a little dissapointed with the way things are right now
and i ask myself what would make things better
what would make me feel like i am climbing up
rather than running on a treadmill...

theres no point A to B
but maybe life is not that simple.

either way i know i have the power
as corny as it sounds
its true.

i think back on the choices ive made
i am mostly proud of them
the experiences ive had are priceless
to me...

but i should swallow my pride
the reality of my situation is
i am back where i started

this climb is not up a hill
its a rocky mountain
and not all reach the top

ive been swept by a current
of social consciousness
and ive doubted myself

i dont want to forget the dream
i miss LA and all its excitement
i miss the wisdom of Mt. Rainier
but most of all i miss the me
that believed everything was possible

star signs
and pyramid power
third eye
and focused mind
fortune tellers
and messages from beyond

they cant help me now...