life is a journey of self discovery... | |
I dont know why I do the things I do....or choose to believe the things I believe in.... Lately, Ive been unknowingly drifting away into a different reality.... In this reality Ive been focusing on change...a quick change....such that doesnt require work or dedication....I have been conditioned to think that things will somehow work out... Chelsea played a huge part on helping me realize what I was doing....since the day I met Chelsea...Ive always felt a strong connection with her for some reason....her honesty, her opinions on things.... I think that in a lot of ways she reminds me of the person I use to be...my true self.... but thru the years...maybe it was "that day".....maybe it was billy....maybe it was all the new friends ive made.....the drugs ive tried.....have changed me....without me realizing.... I want to change...I want a good succesful life....like Ive always wanted..... it will not happen for me automaticly...i must take action on my own.... I just need to start.... I want to start...but Im afraid to drift away again.... |
