sky mind second body

I remember now
the warmth
that golden light
and me
awake...

"gotta give it up"

ofcourse I felt a little silly
it was only the second time
Ive had these kinds of experiences
but it was so real.

Today it just came to mind
maybe since Ive been reading a book again
this time on astral traveling
I remembered.

what I feel I need to do
is to surrender
to the warm golden light
maybe its my guide.

I feel Im picking up right where I left off
all I went through preparing me
for the week after the eclipse
and the new moons.

like the tree nearly crushing me
and the lost deer in the city
what do I take from it?

Baby steps and patience
im excited, scared, and loved
hungry to make it happen
swallowing my pride

I must surrender to something greater.

30 seconds

light travels faster than sound
you can observe this when lightning strikes
and seconds later you hear a thunder
this is considered an ordinary occurence

so why bother talking about it...

the countdown is official
in a couple of days my enviroment will shift
but i am confident in myself.

i have a feeling things will be different this time
it wont be glamorous and it is not a vacation
i am not deppressed or high on life
only a little more balanced than before
with a different perception of myself

i will respect the house rules
but maintain what ive learned
which is more than handling my whiskey.

summer will come and go
and before we know it 2010 will arrive
i see myself taking a turn at a long term dream
its that simple.

like an out of body experience
it is somethinng so real yet so elusive
so easy to forget and disregard
as an ordinary event

only i have that power.