05.19.04

Last night was graduation!!! :)

it was great, finally free from school! once I was walking away from the building I realized I was probably never gonna see so many of those people again! sadness lasted a few seconds...

Shanti was late to the ceremony, I was beginning to worry about her...I felt really bad that I didn't get an honors cord! if only I would have done well the last semester I would of gotten it... :(

After graduation my whole family wanted to go out to eat, but in the area we were in we couldn't really think of anywhere to go, and in our area the only thing was O'charleys and Ruby Tuesdays...so we went to O'charleys and their wait was like 45 mins...so we didn't stay...we went by Pargos and decided to eat there...none of us had ever been and there was no wait!

the food was good, service very good, we all liked it....I was really tired for some reason, I didn't really feel like going to any parties, so I just came home, got online for a few and went to bed...

Billy had called me telling me he couldn't come to graduation because he had to take his mom to the emergency room, so I was concerned about that...but turns out his mom is ok, but there was something else going on....he actually called me this morning and told me what it was...

I was sexing my gerbils this morning because btw Laqueisha had 4 more gerbils....so I put one of the baby girls from the last litter of gerbils in with laquisha and her new babies and all of the sudden Laqueisha freaks and starts chasing her and biting her (so it seems)...could have been excited and playing...lol...either way I took her out...

I guess Im gonna need a new cage...

there were actually 5 baby gerbils but one died....:( lets have a moment of silence......

R.I.P. Kenesha Molesha Renne Jr.

Today I plan on cleaning my gerbils cage...and....I dont know...seems all I ever do is just something with the gerbils...Im such a loser!! I wanna go to Billy's today but he sounds kinda busy...so who knows...

Ill update later

Co

05.12.04

Do you know where you're going?

Take my hand, and I will show you the way.

We may encounter rough paths, but they all have an end.

Dont try to hurry now, you have plenty of time.

For you'll never know what you left behind.

---------------------------Later--------------------------------

I just ate some of the spaghetti my dad made and they were really good, I wish ther was more! Ive been feeling in a weird mood today but Im feeling a lot "happier" now...

I like movies, so what I did is get online and find a bunch of movies that I have no watched that I want to watch, and made a list (which excites me) food and movies are my only passions!!!

I went to school today, I woke up LATE! but I made it to school (with my pajamas and no shower) lol

I had Culinary Arts and Year Book Exams today so it wasnt a big deal...Mr.Bean was being anal about the Year Book exam as if it was sssooo important...

I went to talk to Coach Martin to get my exam review and he told me that he lost them, and that I should stay the whole day today, tom, and friday....I almost said fuck you (but then I wouldnt graduate)

After school I went to return a movie at Blockbuster, and then I came home and took a nap....I dozed off so nicely that I woke up like at 12:40...but I had to take a shower and everything for my Doctors appointment at 1:30...I made it just in time...I was out by like 2:15....

I was hungry...I called Bill and Tim but neither answered their phones...so I went to Cafe Coco by myself. I have the panini fromagio with a salad, and this really good little berry cake...

I really wanted to hang out somewhere and do something but I didnt know what...so I came home, and got online, when I got bored I went back to bed...then got up and went down stairs to watch tv with my parents....we started to watch staw wars but they fell alseep...and that made me mad so I came back to...just layed in my bed and Bill called me...

Im glad he doesnt have cancer....the doctors said he had a tissue mass in the back of his throat and he was freaking out...plus the swollen lymph nodes...lol and the tum tum aches....

He had to go to the mall with Josh....so I just laid in bed for some more time...then I got on the computer...then Tim called...and he had a funny confession to make...he always fuzzed at me about something, and he confessed that he did the same thing last night...lol (if u must know ask me in private)

so anyways....its 10pm and I have no studied for my AP English exam...it shouldnt be too hard but I need to review something!!!

The possibility of not graduating because of fucking history really bothers me...its killing me....Its such a stupid class anyways....If I don't graduate I will not go to summer school, so it'll just be no diploma for me.....ok maybe I would go to summer school...I don't know...I'm just mad and feel stupid at the same time for missing so much school...should of just gotten my shit together from the start and not waste time feeling sorry for myself....I should be exempt from my exams and getting an honors diploma damn it!!!!there's really no reason to beat myself up over that anymore though...

I just feel lost...I hope things turn out for the best

good night

Co